My head throbs and aches with impatience.
Second Semester: Week 1
My world is turned upside down.
Suddenly, the very things that spark my interest
are sending my brain on a tilt-a-whirl.
I do homework when I sleep.
My brain spins in frazzling circles until
I think of something else to think about.
Mostly, I think about Music Theory.
Along with my other inadequacies, currently.
The point of it all:
I am a little ball of stress, sending sparks while
whizzing and popping like a runaway car.
I've realized how little I've stored up for myself.
Sure, everything interests me. Most everything, anyways.
Now what needs work?
Skill sets: singing, piano, dance, and theatre.
BAM! <-- That's how it should happen, according to me.
But my spirit's nature is balance and moderation,
in all things.
I, alone, have not delved too deeply into any one interest.
There's still so much to experience.
Why settle for just a few things?
I know why-- to maybe actually become proficient at something.
Besides being a good student.
Give me instructions, and I can and will go above and beyond the call of duty.
Call me a soldier for academics, sir ;)
Do not be anxious about anything,
but in everything, by prayer and petition,
with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
-Philippians 4:6
God's plan:
Patience, gentleness of spirit, and self-control.
Focus on others with love and compassion.
Read the words from heavenly Father,
about the exile and redemption of humanity!
And be filled with peace beyond all understanding,
because those guys knew where I'm comin' from-
they strayed and stressed and worried and cried-
and they were all led safely home. :)
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light
unto thy path. - Psalm 119: 105
Today became a Sabbath day. After Bible Study, I went to brunch with girls from my hall. Afterwards, we hung out at Seven palms, a picturesque little plot of low-cut grass surrounded by short brick walls with various openings. It looks a bit like a mini outdoor theatre space, because one side is concrete under constant shade under some vegetation.
Anyway, we did 1-arm/2-arm cartwheels, round-offs, loooong handstands, bridges, backwalk overs and front handsprings to our hearts content. We laid in the shade and listened to the Beatles. We talked about nothing too important, and that was just fine. :) We were together, resting and relaxing. Today was all we had, and we lived in it for a change. I liked it. My brain actually had time to store the memory. Plans came without personal impetus or urgency. They just came, and I went with them.
The sun was gentle and amiable, a playful array of sunlight absorbing into our skin like a sweet-smelling lotion. We danced and bathed in it's warmth and let it caress our paler cheeks like stepping into a thousand ribbons of silk. The afternoon snoozed along, and we found ourselves snoozing along with it. It is always a good day when time delays it's flight and stays to bask in the fun.
Rest was a good idea.
I feel my spinning in my brain slowing down with each passing hour...
Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him.
-Psalm 37:7
I will wait.
Meet me in Kairos.
Love,
Katherine
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