Home Alone

I find there's a wide gap between kids who stay home alone, and kids who want to stay home alone.

Let me explain.

I've always wanted to be the girl who could stay home alone most nights of the week and accomplish something extraordinary by the time her parents got home. Mastering the piano, learning water color art, writing music, choreographing dance routines, learning the guitar; in other words, I've longed for a skill set of utilizing my time wisely while accomplishing something of use--becoming a prodigy. Uniquity, newly defined by me, is the noun form for being unique.

My mind not only yearns for accomplishment but SCREAMS at me to find the place where a massive creative impetus may throw me to the level where my pining may find contentment.

It's like...always being thirsty.

After a hot day outside, you drink two full glasses of water, come to your third, and suddenly feel overwhelmingly sick. You drank much to fast, i reckon. And yet, belying your upper stomach's rage for putting it through so much liquid too quickly, something else inside yells at you to keep drinking. Because of your body's constant fluid deprivation, the brain nags at the body to give it what it needs, even when the body is clearly feeling the immediate effects of a 16oz shot of H2O.

It's like that.

Now, my friend Breanna Flaim assured me to start this blog as a release. But now...more than just an emotional release, I find clarity in my head's scattered thoughts and cluttered messages.

I am torn. Body vs. Mind. Spirit vs. Flesh.

A battle rages within me.

Between my college, my future career, my friendships, and my behavior/outlook of them all...

a separation threatens to tear my world apart at any second. BUT...

As long as a battle rages within me, I am alive in Christ.

"If anyone is thirsty, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him. By this, he meant the Spirit, whom those who believed in him were later to receive." -John 7:37-39.

It's this uniquity which I long for, while organizing my time to make the most of each and everyday